Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Somnambulism as French Drama

Hello all, and please help me welcome back my lost sarcastic self. I've missed her so! She arrived back in the form of a dream last night as I tossed and turned my way across the bed. (Rich is gone again. Sigh. Three and a half weeks now.)

In my dream I was a new mother again, terrifying in itself. (I'm not pregnant, Mom. Stop it.) But I dreamt that I woke up to the sound of my baby crying next to me from the crib. I stood and looked around for the crib but couldn't find it. The crying intensified and then changed into laughter, cackly insidious laughter that sent a chill down my spine and caused me to jump back into the bed looking for Rich. Who, of course, wasn't there.

I wrestled my way around the bed, shoving pillows aside, looking this way and that for my poor baby, finding nothing. I began to grow more and more panicky, knowing something was wrong, something was wrong, something was wrong. I turned on my bedside lamp and saw myself standing in front of me (wearing Rich's robe, for some reason. Was I perhaps standing in for him while he's gone, being my own voice of reason? Who knows?)

In a French accent I told myself to snap out of it. I don't have a baby anymore and I'm going to be tired all day long tomorrow if I don't stop having this dream. Oh, and let Marlo back in the room. She's out in the hall whining.

Huh.

At which point I woke up (kind of) and let Marlo back into the room where she hopped up on Rich's side of the bed and stretched out all the way to go back to sleep. My bed was wrecked, pillows in the floor and one corner of the sheet pulled off the mattress, so I fixed that and put myself back to bed, turning off the lamp and being grateful that my "baby" is a super-long dachshund.

I woke up tired this morning. After all that sleepwalking, I can't imagine why. But my sarcastic self is back with me again and I'm going to need her help with my manuscript revisions. My heroine is refusing to get happy.

But that's another story entirely.


Currently listening :
Siamese Dream
By Smashing Pumpkins
Release date: 27 July, 1993

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